Well, this is my first entry i dont know why i started to do this. I guess i just thought i wanted to write what is on my mind and get it off my chest. I guess the major issue in my life right now is the downfall of my once amazing relationship with the women i love. That's right Kevin you blew another one. How about that? WOW!!!I can sit here and tell myself a million of things about why i lost her, but the real truth is... is that i didnt want her bad enough, because if i loved her, and chearished her as much as i thought i did. then My life with her would have centered around one world "effort". That my friend is something only you can only but on yourself. I know that in my life i have found love( true love that is) but i was looking at it though a completly differant picture then what i should have been. Cause ya see know matter how much you love someone, know matter how much you tell them that you love them, If you do not SHOW them. then you are doing nothing but pretending to love. I guess this kevin, is what you had to lose in order for you to know just how much knowledge you have gained. Will i ever find true love again? i dont know. But i tell you what, if it does just so happen to cross my path again. I WILL NOT stray away from it this time. i guess that is all for tonight. sleep time :)